We always wanted 5.....

Yes, it is true. The ticker I added is the real deal. Rodgers Baby #5 coming late July. (Did you know my heart was totally pounding as I added that ticker?? It was!). One thing I have hated, oh, I mean, disliked (We don't say "hate" in our house. Too much hating going on around here.) is that after you've had a loss, or a few, you feel like the joy of making the big announcement gets taken from you. You are afraid of telling people you are pregnant, I guess because you think you will jinx yourself. Or maybe you are afraid you will have to turn right around in a week or so and say, "Nevermind! We lost it!!". Or you will feel like a fool, for trying again. (I really did feel like that after we had lost so many in a row. It was like I was afraid people were secretly saying, "They are trying AGAIN?? Just give up already!" But we didn't give up and we have our little Audrey Anne!).

So, I am well aware I still have another month or so until I get out of my "scary zone". I have had two appointments and have seen that sweet little heartbeat twice. What a relief! He even thinks it is a boy!! Oh, how Seth would LOVE that!! If I can get through to the next appointment, I will feel much better. But, I am for sure in a better place now. Having Audrey has healed us all in so many ways, and if this one does not make it, I think I will be able to work through it better. I know it is not in my hands and I know that whatever happens, all will be well. All is well and that is why I decided to go ahead and post this. We told our kids and they have told everyone they have come in contact with. We are rejoicing in our wonderful news and know the Lord will comfort us if it is not meant to be.