It's all good, baby!!

I went to the ob today and saw my little one's heartbeat and was very relieved. I swear, my blood pressure gets so high during my appointment, they have to take it twice. "Oh, I am just a tad nervous!" I say. I am pretty sure they don't know my chart by heart, or my history so they must think I am cooky. Oh well. I pretty much am, I think.

I am 18 weeks, and baby is growing well. Ya, and I about died when I looked at the scale, by the way. I should just NOT look. His scale is 9 pounds off cause I did not weigh THAT when I weighed myself this morning. I know, why would someone like me care about that; you would think I wouldn't with my baby-losing history. But, I am human, and I gotta stop eating cookies for breakfast............bummer.

The baby was not in a good position to tell if it was a boy or not. But, he said he still would say it is a boy. Sweet baby boy. I still wonder if I will make it all the way with him. With Audrey I was seriously nervous at each and every appointment; even up until the end. So sad I just can't relax and stop thinking, "What if.....". But, I am grateful to have made it this far. Now if "other things" would fall into place that would be super-dooper. My glass seems half-empty lately. But, I am truly grateful our garage door broke when we were both OUT of the garage. The spring is broken and we can't lift if manually. So, we can park in our driveway, no problem, until we get it fixed. I am glad our cars weren't stuck in there until we got it fixed. That would be a big fat bummer!!

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