A friend of mine had a full-term stillborn baby boy.
He was perfect in every way, but was born still.
My heart aches for my friend.
I am sure her arms ache for her son.
She has been down this road before.
She has lost two others near 20 weeks, like I did.
But, going all the way to the end and losing your baby?
That would break my heart in so many pieces.
I took my friend dinner tonight.
I came home and looked at my two little ones raising
a ruckus and filling our home with screams and laughter.
Those five years trying to get Audrey here were so hard.
Four losses in a row.
Two at 20 weeks.
But, she made it. Safe and sound.
Then came Noah, anxious to be with his sister here on earth.
Those two are the cutest little buddies.
As I looked at them this evening, I realized, again, that I have been
given such a gift.
I don't cringe when it is the "anniversary" of a loss.
I don't avoid baby showers.
I don't look longingly at newborns; especially boys.
I don't avoid conversations with pregnant women.
I don't ask "Why?" anymore.
................
What would I do if I didn't have them?
It could have ended differently for me; for our family.
But, for whatever reason, the Lord gave me two more
chances to be a mother here on earth.
I am so thankful for that.
So very, very thankful.
..............
I know my friend will have some rough, sad days ahead.
I hope that I can be there for her.
I hope in time, her heart will mend.
2 thoughts shared:
I am so sad for your friend Megan! I always felt like what you went through would allow you to help others; and you are such a loving person and can have such empathy for those who are struggling. I too am so glad that you were blessed with your two little ones...so happy.
Beautifully written! I was always so grateful to have you by my side as we walked a little of the same path together - you helped me a great deal. Thanks again for helping last night.....you're incredible!
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